Who Am I ? - I am in different characters at the same time: a daughter, friend, a citizen of my country, and so on. But for now, the most important role i am playing is a student, or more specifically, a student who is getting ready gor the senior year and all kinds of tests to get in a dream college. I didn't realize how little the time has left for me to study for all those tests until i went to the college otur last week, especially for me, as an international student, i have to prepare for more tests than the native students (ACT, SAT, and TOEFL).They made me feel so stressed out and it seems like I have been lost in a fog for a long time that i dont know what to do with it. But now, i know who I am and I know what I'm going to become, I know how to achieve my goals. I know I have to pay all my effort. "Time is money", there's no any reason for me to waste all my time watching dramas or shows, or to sit in front of a computer and spend the precious time on Facebook. To change from who i am to who i want to be, i know i can as long as i 'm trying my very best.
What Was I Born To Do ? - Actually i 've already thought about that long time ago. At that time, i told myself "all you need to do is to satisfy your parents, do what they want you to do, and be what they want you to be. " I just need to obey my parents on everything for no reason. Both of my parents are business man, so i want to major in business and get in a good business college, that's all my dream. It might sound very unbelievable for many of the American students, but for me it's been the truth or the "doctrine" for me since i was born. But now, i found that i have to change it a little bit, i have to have the dream for myself and live for myself, not only for my parents. I still want to get into a business college and major in business, not because of my parents, i just found that i love it, and feel like that's how i can create my own world. So if you ask me now, what am i born to do. i will say, to achieve my own dream.
What Is Stopping Me? - As a teenager, the internet is still the biggest enemy for me to stop me from achieving my goals. Dramas, TV shows, movies, and those online games drag me away from focusing on study. Even though i know that's wrong for me to do things except for study, i just could not control myself sometimes. But at least, now i realize the importance for me to work harder and get over all the temptings from the internet, and i know what is that means by "a minute does farm work, a minute harvest." I will get over all the troubles and focus on what i should do.
I totally agree with you. One of my greatest enemies is the internet too. :)
ReplyDelete"I know I have to pay all my effort." That stood out to me. I have never heard that before, and it really brings to perspective what you are trying to say. Your time is of great worth, and you show that you know that.
Thank you for inspiring me!
I have often found countless hours wasted through the internet or watching TV. I find when I can don't waste time I can do so many more things than I usually do and have what seems like so much more time.
ReplyDeleteI Totally relate with you! Like you, I see that college is approaching ever more rapidly then I thought possible. I like how you explained it as if you were entering out of a fog and everything is comming at you all at once. Wow, I think your really amazing for being able to take all the extra tests. Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteI appreciate your honesty and insights. Finding out who you are and what you are born to do is sometimes a long process. Respecting parents more is something Americans can learn from the Chinese for sure. You don't have to have all the answers, but being on the path to find those answers has to be enough sometimes.
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